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Comparison: The Thief of Joy

Social media is a cesspool of comparison. There is absolutely no way to deny it and if we would be honest, we would admit that as much as we don’t want to compare ourselves we do. I found myself drowning in that pool recently and I had to get the heck out there. So I removed all of my social media apps cold turkey.

At first it all started with me seeing a girl in a dope outfit on Instagram and thinking to myself, “Oh she is wearing that!” Soon after that I found myself looking at picture of Kim Kardashian on the beach looking all slim and fearless, feeling hopeless because I would never look like her. I even fantasized about what it would feel like to look like her and when I looked down at myself and saw my psoriasis covered rolls around my stomach I just cringed in horror.

I am one of those people who like to think I love myself but in truth I and in the process of unwrapping decades of being put down by others and years of self-hate. It wasn’t until I snapped out of my fantasy of looking like Kim K that I realized that by remaining in that space that I would be ruining any progress I’ve made in truly accepting myself as the chubby, psoriasis covered queen that I am.

I would love to be able to say that I can be on social media and be unfazed by all the hype but I still find myself being negatively influenced by it. One thing I will admit is that it’s me that is allowing this to happen, so it has to be me who works on making the change. That is why I’ve decided to leave social media for a bit and work on myself.

Will I go back to it before I’m completely healed? Probably.

But I will not return until I’ve done some extensive work in learning to love myself more thoroughly. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.


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